Browny

Today was sad, very sad. browny passed away and i still feel so shitty. it has been 8 hours and im not feeling better at all. i feel super guilty for neglecting browny in the past. well, i never knew how to treasure browny until this morning when he was already so sick. and i got sooooo worried that i would actually do anything to let him live pass this whole thing :( but he didnt.. so i rushed to the vet when browny looked like he couldnt make it any longer. the vet say he was actually really sick and at that point of time, i just wanted to cry. i felt like a useless owner :'( i rarely even takes him out to play and all. when he was sick the other time, i pushed the job of feeding him vitamin to my sister and she stopped after awhile. i can only blame myself for pushing the job to her and having an irresponsible sister lol it hurted so bad when i saw how much pain browny was in.. he was so blosted and everything. i wish i could do something everytime he move so violently cos of the pain but i couldnt. then at last, he passed on at about 19:59hrs. i mean it was a good thing but a bad thing as well. he was free from the pain, but we lost him. i was that close to putting him to sleep but then he gave me some hope that he would actually recover like what the vet told me. but he didnt. sigh. RIP Browny, i love you & i will always do. Miss you so much.