HBM needs me to go through every topic, from lecture 1 all the way to lecture 9 i suppose, to prepare for finals. And me being me, i know nothing or at least i dont remember from lecture and tutorials. For PMKT, the first paper on 21st, is a little lighter because the topics tested will only be from lecture 5 to 10 and during the revision lecture, she helped us alot by really REALLY hinting what is important and what is not. And im really damn thankful for that. And for the last paper, ACF, im fucking clueless and im so scared i will shit in my pants if i were to sit for the paper in a few days time. cos i know nothing at all thanks to the useless lecture we have. plus i depended alot on my project mates for the project segment so ya im basically fucked for ACF. and it is all calculations which cannot be mastered and memorised in a day, life sucks.
I also got very frustrated with my studying environment because it fucking sucks. Im studying at the dining table, facing the TV which is always on. Im always so distracted by it and whatever my family is talking about in the living room. Its also because i dont want to study and have no choice but to study. And my room?? dont event think about it because 4 people (including me) is sleeping in the room now which leave us no spare space to put a study table. we would be able to if my sister wasnt that problematic and if my cousin didnt have to sleep here. so basically, my house is overpopulated now because both my younger cousin are sleeping here on mondays to fridays. They have to wait till their parents get their new house ready and for them to transfer to schools closer to them. So including them, we have like 8 people in this house. How conducive can this house be right? And my "study area" for exams is always so messy sigh
Ive actually cried a little and took a bathe and finally feeling a little better. I actually did thought about going outside to study but im quite certain my mum will not allow me to go out late at night since my brain works better at night. Tbh, i havent gotten anything done the whole day because im so distracted by everything. Please god please let me be more productive tomorrow (at least finish HBM once) hahaha I really hope so.
I kinda got hooked up on Sherlock Holmes too thanks to my cousin and oh i love that show. I like the british accent and how brilliant Sherlock is! so i shall end this post with a dialogue Sherlock said in S01E03: "Listen. This is my hard drive and it only makes sense to put things in there that are useful. Really useful. Ordinary people fill their heads with all kinds of rubbish. And that makes it hard to get at the stuff that matters. Do you see?" Well, I wish i was as brilliant as him and not try to stuff all these rubbish in my head. Cant wait for finals to be over so i can continue Season 2 and 3!!!!!!!!
Finals got me like:
And i kinda feel better after pouring my heart out into this post haha byebye and those reading my blog, its time to get off the internet and get back to studying xoxo
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