Constant Change

 

Im feeling so sad for whatever reason now. and i dont think im even clear of what im actually feeling sad about :( Okay maybe i am. Change is the only constand thing in life, sad but true. I mean who likes changes? when its for the worst and not for the better. Like how friends drift apart from one another and cliques disband. i dont like it. well, it has only been a month in TR23 and i have to admit they are one of the classes that im quite happy im in, really. so my first group of friends in TR23 is gayporkkkkk and im reallyreallyreally blessed to have them. but somehow things started to change a little after the TRM retreat. and i feel upset. i get jealous and all whenever i see photos where we 5 are no longer together. im being super selfish and controlling, i know but i really cant help but feel this way and getting irritated by the change. i constantly feel threaten whenever my friends get closer to someone else in the class and i dont like the feeling like im gonna get replaced anytime. im being so possesive and everything now but everything i've said comes from inside me. i really hope things will change for the better. actually i got a feeling im feeling so emotional is cos i didnt have 8 hours of sleep in total the past two nights cos of the camp and stupid blog post. today is a sad day, i screwed my interview up as well. but i hope the sacrifice was worth it and im gonna get it. i'll update about the TRM Retreat next time! okay time for bed goodnight